
It
got to the stage where I couldn’t tell if it was night
or day. Totally losing all track of time, vaguely aware of drinking
vast quantities of Makers Mark Kentucky Sour Mash, scribbling
lyrics and recording into an old Ghetto Blaster, drifting in
and out of an hallucinogenic semi-conscious state shivering and
burning up. Fireworks erupting in my head as the merry go round
span ever faster to the discordant organ music and clowns faces
screaming laughing and distorting into characters of my past,
Ronnie, Fast Fiona, Donkey, Mickey, Maggie (the supermum who
ran the children’s home in Mitchum and taught me to play
guitar) and countless others, that I’ve met over the last
thirty odd years in the building game all coming back to haunt
and inspire me.
I’d been at it about a week, and it suddenly came to
an abrupt halt when I finished the tenth song (a feeling like
I’d just delivered the Ten Commandments). The nightmares
stopped but the drinking didn’t, how could I cut these
songs and deliver this gift from the other side? The answer came
one cold misty night as I left the off licence deep in thought
and stepped off the pavement into the path of an oncoming car. |